March 9, 2010

"What? What's that look for? Are you ok?"
"Look."

The day I found out I was expecting-- was the scariest day of my life.  I didn't know what to expect, didn't have a clue how I would do this.  I was a freshman in college, not taking it seriously and never going to class.  I was not working, I was basically just living..
I cried.  But, never once was there any doubt in my mind that you would be mine to love. Any other choices were completely ridiculous and something I would NEVER consider. God sent you to me for a reason and all I can say is that I am blessed! 

From that point on, I realized that it will be hard. But, I made a promise to you while you were just the size of a grape. You will be loved and cared for more than you could ask for. I will make your life better than you could ever dream of. You will grow up and I hope for a life that's better than mine could ever be.  I didn't know it was possible to love someone and do so much for them before you even meet them. I want the best for you and that's what you will get.

I loved you from day one and nothing, absolutely nothing, will ever change that.
Love you my sweet baby
-mama.